keptherwaiting | 1948, Philadelphia

1948, Philadelphia

Waiting for Alice to finish getting ready, Jasper is far more excited and confident than nervous for their date this time.

She’d made him shower first, not wanting him to put on his fancy clothes without one, and then she’d disappeared into the bathroom with more than one bag in her arms after he’d finished. His suit had been left on the bed, which he’d changed into quickly - a perfect fit, because she knows him so perfectly and so finely crafted too - and then he’d been left to more or less think about their upcoming night.

He feels good, more sure of himself than he has been in awhile, and vows to make up for the little stumbles earlier by making sure Alice has a great time tonight.

He’s sure Alice will look beautiful, she always does, and he knows he looks great, because Alice picked out the suit especially for him. He wonders where they’ll go to dance; Alice has said she knew of a place. And it’s still early enough, a Friday, and even the quietest of weeknights in Philly have seen plenty of activity.

He’s just thinking of fetching another bouquet of flowers for her - the other already artfully displayed on a table - when the door to the bathroom finally creaks open.

He turns and sucks in an appropriately sharp breath at the sight of her.

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A moan catches in her throat at the visions spinning webs in front of her, flashes of each moment he wants.

She wants.

Smoothing her hand over the front of his pants, she reaches the buttons, flicking them open, sinking her fingers beneath the fabric to tug them down, her mouth at each patch of skin exposed until—

Pushing his pants down his legs, yanking them off and behind her somewhere, Alice settles between his thighs. Taking him in her hand, fingers gentle as she strokes, Alice slides her mouth over him, finally, but torturously slow, groaning around him.

Jasper slides his fingers into her hair, the torturous slow slide of her mouth on him driving him crazy.

Their first night together, a not-so-distant handful of days ago, she’d been so tentative about this. For all of a moment. Her desire and love for him outweighing any of the momentary nervousness she had felt. He’d been floored that first night, and the next day, and the next, and even now, every time -

“Jesus, Alice.”

It‘s like she knows how to touch him just right, as if she‘d been the one with his powers. That she knows how to make him squirm and stutter under her touch as if he was an eager, teenaged boy again.

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She’d been so worried about him not enjoying it—she had no idea what she was doing, after all.

But the decision made opened up the paths for her to see them, to walk them and know. A use of her gift she hadn’t considered before.

His utterance pulls her from the reverie, her gold eyes flicking up to take him in, the stretch of his arms to reach her head, the taut lines of his abdomen.

She ghosts her fingers over his stomach, bobbing her head down to take more of him in her mouth—a feat in itself; she’s tiny comparatively, even in this.

Pulling back, Alice twists her palm around him, licking her lips as she watches his face, her eyes dark, thighs pressing together in anticipation. “Which one,” she whispers, her voice a little hoarse. “Which way do you want me?”

His immediate response is to let her have control of their night, to do with him as she pleases.

And then he’s running his finger across her lips, thinking. Her desire and anticipation in his decision. Her wanting him to decide.

“You, on top,” he murmurs, deciding in the next moment. He wants to watch her, her knees braced tight as she moves above him.

Just the thought and his hips buck at it.

“Okay,” she breathes, leaving the space between his legs with one more twist of her hand.

Pressing herself against him, Alice slides her way up his body, dropping kisses here and there; his hip, his ribs, at his heart.

Settling herself on his waist, she leans down, kissing his chin, jaw, finally his lips before rising up on her knees to take him in hand, easing herself onto him, a gasp escaping her as the stretch of him filling her sends every nerve alight.

“Shit,” Alice curses, head dropping forward as she takes him in, her legs trembling at his sides. “God, Jasper...”

The reality of her on top of him is better than the mere thought he’d had. He gives her a moment to adjust to him, and a warmth floods through him as he stares at her. His name falls from her lips, and his chest aches for her. A feeling more deeper and profound than the lust and desire that still courses through him.

Her legs still tremble, still a little unsteady, and yet she moves, just a little, her hand resting on his chest and he stops analyzing his emotions and focuses on the moment.

His hands find her tiny waist and he guides her, lifting her - “Here. Just - There. Right there.” - before he’s thrusting up to meet her as he brings her down again, the angle perfect for her, him having already learned and memorized her body so thoroughly.

She shudders around him, above him, as he finds the perfect angle to thrust into her, as she rises and falls above him.

No, finds is the wrong word. He knows. He knows the perfect way to make her tremble and ache around him, because of him.

Alice shifts her hips, dragging them forward against him, a choker moan escaping her as she bites down on her lip. She wants stay here, on this precipice of love and lust and so close forever.

“Jasper,” she whispers, his name the softest of utterances. “God, you—I—“

She whines another noise before dropping forward to kiss him again.

His lips to hers, meeting her in a desperate kiss, and he’s pouring all of his feelings into her again. He’s pretty sure the whole floor is affected by now but he doesn’t care. Only cares about Alice.

He knows what she wants to say, can feel it, but he knows she won’t. That she keeps biting her tongue, holding back the words. She’s waiting for him, he knows.

And he keeps holding back.

He growls softly, a flash of frustration at himself that he can’t find the words. He just - turns his attention to the act once more instead. Focuses on the lust and desire like an electrical current between them.

He lies back again, his hands tightening on her hips. “Go on, darlin’,” he murmurs, wetting his lips as he looks her over again. It really is a great view. “Just - Go on and ride me.”

“Fuck,” Alice hisses, a gasp as she rolls forward again, the sensations he brings forth from her center, radiating outward.

She has to kiss again, it’s a desperate need, she needs his lips against hers as she rises and falls above him.

“You’re so—“ her voice breaks as she pulls back from the kiss. “Amazing—wonderful—“

Her words break off again, another moan as she pushes herself up, then back down onto him.

His hands are wherever he can reach, unable to keep them off of her. Her hair when she kisses him again. Her hips when she moves achingly slow and too fast all at once. Her breasts when he thrusts up to meet her.

He’s not going to last very long. He feels dizzy from the current of emotions between them, every nerve on fire like the burn in his throat when he’s hungry.

And he is. Just for her and not anything else at the moment.

“God, Alice.”

He grips her hips, his snapping to hers faster as he meets her move for move.

He’s so close - so very, very close - and the movements between them turn frantic, urgent, and then he’s there, a little groan, a tight grip on her hips.

“ - God. Alice. I - You are - Jesus.”

His sharper, faster thrusts make stars appear behind her eyelids, her eyes squeezing shut tightly, her fingers scrabbling at his chest, sliding over his skin as she leans over him, to bury them in the sheets.

Goddammit, he makes her feel so good.

With lips pressed together, Alice whimpers out another moan, the sound muffled and swallowed by the sounds of their bodies meeting. She’s flying, floating, and—

It breaks, all at once. Waves radiating through her as she clenches around him, drops her head to his shoulder and muffles her sob against his skin. Her fingers twist in the sheets at his shoulders, her legs shaking, arms shaking, desperately gasping for breath as she falls apart above, around, with him.

He’s not sure who is shaking more in the moment and after, her or him.

Maybe they’re just matched, equal, perfectly in sync.

Jasper pulls her to him almost immediately after, wrapping his arms tight around her as he kisses at her mouth, her cheeks, her forehead, whatever he can reach.

His hand rubs down her shaky arm, her back, his own limbs just as shaky, his breath just as stolen.

“You are - incredible,” he manages eventually, mouthing at her jaw. “We’re incredible.”

It’s never been like this for him, before her.

Alice pants against his skin, body feeling like every nerve is still firing. Every shift of her hips makes her hyperaware of him still seated inside of her, not wanting to lose that absolute closeness yet.

She kisses him back, weakly at first, then stronger as she comes back to herself. Her hands frame his face, holding him in place so she can taste him, breathe him in.

Then, his words, and her heart blooms in warmth. They are incredible. He is. She is. Together.

The words fall from her lips before she can stop them, just a sigh of: “I love you,” and she stills, pressing her forehead against his shoulder and wincing. It wasn’t the time to say it—she doesn’t want him to feel pressured. She doesn’t regret the words, she means them, wholeheartedly, but it wasn’t time. “Oh,” Alice huffs against his skin. “That was supposed to be said later.”

Jasper hadn’t realized what it would be like to hear her say the words, even with having known how she’s felt since he’d met her.

His emotions are far too big for him to contain, feeling like his heart could burst at any moment with the way she feels.

The way he feels, too.

And then she huffs about the timing of it all and he’s grinning, chuckling.

“We on a specific timeline for all this that I don’t know about?”

“Well,” Alice groans, her eyelashes fluttering against his skin. She forces herself to sit up, look him in the eye when she speaks, even if she just wants to hide under the sheets. “I didn’t...I don’t want...”

Her fingers press at her eyes and she mutters incoherently at herself. She lifts off of him, breath hitching at the loss of him, moving to curl at his side.

Her fingertip traces a scar at his ribs; if she were human she’d be as red as a tomato, she thinks.

“I didn’t want to say it until you did. I didn’t want to make you feel pressured or...weird about it all.” Alice frowns, her lips pushing into a pout, her voice small. “Did I? Is it weird now? I’m sorry.”

“ - Alice, please don’t apologize. You haven’t made it weird, and I don’t feel pressured. I - “

He looks away from her, not wanting to see a look of disappointment when he can’t summon the words just yet. Even though he’d surely feel her disappointment regardless.

He feels his own disappointment and frustration at keeping her waiting even this long.

His mouth twists in a frown, and he catches her fingers in his, bringing them to his mouth to kiss, even as he still can’t meet her eye.

“ - Do you remember when I was asking about your visions, before? And I asked how much you’ve seen of us? I was just curious, but - You were turned twenty-eight years ago, and the first thing you saw was me.”

He kisses her fingers again, the words are a struggle and he finds a strength in her that helps.

“I’d have still been with Maria then. Did you see her? Us? I thought I loved her,” he says, the words coming more quickly now, his lips a blur against her palm as he holds her hand to his mouth. “I didn’t know. But this - ? God, Alice, you are so much more to me. You and I were meant for each other.”

He’s never believed in something as much as he believes in Alice and him.

“I love you. I’ve been stupid about acknowledging it. But the feelings are there. Have been since I’d met you. Nothing has ever felt more right to me than our love.”

She’s hesitant, as he talks, her eyes focusing on her hand in his, his lips against her skin.

Yeah, she’d seen him and Maria, but there’d been little love left between the two of them toward the end. Anger, snarling fights and hateful words spat at each other. Touches that were more violent than anything else.

It hurt, thinking about those visions long passed. Not because of her (though they had stabbed through her, making her hate a woman she’d never met), but because of the pain and sorrow Jasper had felt, been caused, during and after those moments.

Alice opens her mouth to say something, not sure what will fall off her tongue this time, when he says the words: you and I are meant for each other.

I love you.

Her eyes close, lips pressing tightly together as relief, gratitude, love, they all wash over her. She hadn’t realized how important hearing the words would be, not when she’s felt the sentiment so clearly when he presses his emotions into her.

Disentangling her hand from his, she presses her fingers under his chin, to make him look at her as she hovers over him. “Good,” Alice whispers, her voice thick. “Good. I love you, too. You’re the most important part of my life, Jasper. I love you.”

His smile is as wobbly as her voice is thick as he sits up and kisses her.

Hearing the words from her again, even with knowing and always having known, is not something he will ever tire of hearing he thinks.

She makes him feel whole, right, happy.

“I love you,” he says again when he parts from the kiss and rests his forehead against hers. He’s grinning now, unrestrained. “I’m sorry I kept you waiting again.”

At least it wasn’t another twenty-eight years?

“It wasn’t long,” Alice laughs softly, carding her hand through his hair, kissing him again and again.

She can’t get enough of him. He makes her feel dizzy, needy, desperate. He makes her so happy, the happiest she’s ever felt.

“It was worth the wait,” she whispers, her hands cupping his face as she looks at him. “You absolutely are worth waiting for.”

She certainly makes him feel like he’d been worth it.

He bumps his nose with hers, and kisses her again and again.

“Technically, I had to wait a - hundred an’ five years for you,” he teases, his lips barely leaving hers.

“I’d say it was easier for you, not knowing I was coming,” Alice murmurs, her expression falling a little. Sadder. “But I know it wasn’t.”

She traces the lines of his face, his nose, lips. “I wanted so badly to find you sooner. But you weren’t ready for me. Any time I tried to alter it, make the decision, it was just...”

Bad. He wouldn’t come; he wouldn’t believe her; worse still—he might have done things to please Maria. It was never clear, because those visions hadn’t been right.

“Anyway,” she sighs, leaning in to kiss the corner of his lips. “You weren’t ready for me. And even though it wasn’t perfect, I think you needed that time with Peter and Charlotte too.”

He doesn’t want her sad and he kisses away the frown that appears.

“Everything I went through eventually brought me to you. Maybe it’s why I fought so hard.”

He’d liked to think there was a purpose to it all. How, even in the darkest of moments, he’d never given up.

“And what’s happened, that’s all behind us now, okay?”

He smiles at her.

“I love you.”

And he’ll keep saying it until she smiles again, if he has to.

“I love you.”

She covers his lips with her own, unhurried but deep; teeth grazing his bottom lip, tongue sliding against his in tiny sips of him.

The love she feels for him is so bright, so blinding, radiating through her like the sun.

“I love you,” Alice whispers against his mouth, fiercely. She curls herself against him, pressing herself so close, as close as she can. “God, Jasper, I love you.”

Jasper gathers her into his arms, into his lap, as he trades kisses and whispers with her: “I love you too.”

His love for her courses through him to her with each kiss and accompanies each word he whispers.

He can tell it’s affecting the rooms around them now, and he still doesn’t care. It’s a profound thing, irrepressible. It may be the only time the poor souls ever feel anything so pure and genuine.

He’s dizzy with it himself.

She feels a strange whirl of vertigo, though she’s safe in his arms. The emotion is like a heavy cloud, yet light as a feather, so pure and bottomless.

It makes her grin against his mouth, makes her giggle softly into his kisses, the slow press and slide of lips as they bask in the truth of it all.

He loves her. It’s such a giddy thing. Three words that make her dead heart soar. She aches with the knowledge of it, the precious thing he’s given her.

“I thought I’d wait longer,” she whispers, “to hear you say it. The possibility was always there—but I thought it would be longer. Me and my big mouth changed that.”

Alice huffs another laugh against his mouth, not wanting to move a millimeter from his lips. “A rare time I can be thankful for that.”

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